I do not consider myself to be a "performer," but I find the concentration that I experience when playing concerts exhilarating. It makes me feel so truly alive and truly involved (even relaxed) when I am playing chamber music or orchestral music for a group of people who are listening. When the concert at hand is over, I want to have the experience again; but the only way I can "get" it is through playing music with people for people. I suppose it is kind of an addiction.
Doesn't the word "performing" seem very much out of place?
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This made me look up the etymology of "perform" and it comes from the old French "parfournir" - through, to completion plus furnish, provide.
Furnishing and providing both have a better feel for me than performing - probably because I've spent way more time as a music therapist than as a music performer.
In this age of recorded music it seems more people perform music (in the sense you're uncomfortable with) than simply make it for themselves and friends.
I don't see your joy as an addiction, but more of a sensation amplified by it's increasing rarity in our society.
Perhaps the Gunther Schuller quote you mentioned in a recent post ("I love the word realize. I hate the word interpretation")is relevant here as it relates to performance.
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