
May 2, 2020
The set is all finished! You can find a link to it here.

Massenet's Méditation is a dreamy and passionate piece from his opera Thaïs. It's marked "Andante religioso" and is about introspection and soul-searching, as Thaïs undergoes a religious awakening and grapples with the conflict between the sensual and spiritual.
It was hard to accompany myself in this one - I had some fights with myself during rehearsal!
Maybe I went too crazy adjusting the colors, I tried to go for a nostalgic look for this one. From now on I can film with two camera angles - Progress!
The virus itself would be enough to bear. Dianu.
Knowing about the federal officials (in various places) who tried to cover it up would be enough to bear. Dianu.
Hearing, seeing, and reading about the federal official who called the virus a hoax would be enough to bear. Dianu.
Seeing the people who believe that federal official, and hearing they say that it is just a flu, and that everyone is going to get it anyway would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The Florida governor who ignored advice about closing beaches during spring break would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The university students who spent spring break in Florida passing the virus to one another, and then bringing it back to their communities would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The federal offical who is making the simple act of getting personal protective equipment to health care workers nearly impossible would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The supreme court voting against a state governor who wanted to postpone an election for reasons of public health in a pandemic would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The federal official who tells people that he is not going to wear a protective mask, thereby giving the message that his supporters don't need to wear one either would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The people who believe that the virus is God's punishment for holding gay pride parades would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The people who continue to hold religious services during a time when social distancing is the only way to prevent the spread of the virus would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The obscene number of people who are dying every day from this virus would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The obscene number of health care providers who die from this virus would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The obscene number of people why are dying because the polluted air in the communities they live in has compromised their lungs would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The tragic number of people who cannot grieve properly after losing people they love because of the virus would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The obscene number of people exposed to the virus who do not have health insurance, and, by the actions of a certain federal official, can't enroll in the Affordable Care Act would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The number of victims of domestic abuse who are unable to leave their homes because of the virus would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The number of elected officials who refuse to put the health and safety of the people they represent over their own political ambitions and desire for more wealth and more power would be enough to bear. Dianu.
The economic and psychological toll that this (at this point endless) period of fear is taking, and the extraordinary burden of (eventually) recovering from it would be enough to bear. Dianu.
I'm like a playing card belonging to an old and unrecognizable suit--the sole survivor of a lost deck. I have no meaning, I don't know my worth, there's nothing I can compare myself with to discover what I am, and to make such a discovery would be of no use to anyone. And so, describing myself in image after image--not without truth, but with lies mixed in--I end up more in the images than in me, stating myself until I no longer exist, writing with my soul for ink, useful for nothing except writing. But the reaction ceases, and again I resign myself. I go back to whom I am, even if it's nothing. And a hint of tears that weren't cried makes my stiff eyes burn; a hint of anguish that wasn't felt gets caught in my dry throat. But I don't even know what I would have cried over, if I'd cried, nor why it is that I didn't cry over it. The fiction follows me, like my shadow. And what I want is to sleep.
[Section 193 of "A Factless Autobiography" translated by Richard Zenith]

